I kept hearing that song, one that reminded me of you. It's everywhere, on the radio, tv even on my winmx. I can't escape it no more than I can escape you. I didn't want you to mean this much to me. But you do. And I'm here and you're there and it makes me think is this what it's going to be like in college? What if this is as good as it gets? And I'm feeling nervous trying to be so perfect cause your worth it. Remember when you told me you finally got the girl you deserved, you got your dream girl. I was so happy. I slept with your sweatshirt last night pretending it was you so I wouldn't feel so empty. That you weren't hundreds of miles away from me. And this whole thing is breaking my heart.

Yesterday was nice. I went shopping and got some cute things. Then I went to my eye appointment and picked out new glasses. They're PINK! They look so cute and the lady was like hunnie, those are so pretty on you and I figured I own enough pink to go for it.

I didn't study at all though. Rob came over and we made ourselves comfortable on my couch. My father told me I had a two hour delay which made me very happy. I lost my calculator so if I don't find it I'll just have to out and buy another one. Sigh.

I have to study for physics and do some senior project junk.

~And all the things I deserve, for being such a good girl hunnie

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